Just a silly questionnaire.

1.      How old would you be if you didn’t know how old you are? 19

2.     Which is worse, failing or never trying? Never trying (for fear of failing)

3.     If life is so short, why do we do so many things we don’t like and like so many things we don’t do? For fear of judgment/trying to fit in/social convention/responsabilities

4.     When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done? I hope not.

5.     What is the one thing you’d most like to change about the world? Lack of empathy in general

6.     If happiness was the national currency, what kind of work would make you rich? Being a doctor or an advocate for women’s rights.

7.      Are you doing what you believe in, or are you settling for what you are doing? A bit of both.

8.     If the average human life span was 40 years, how would you live your life differently? I would stop justifying myself all the time. And I would travel a lot more.

9.     To what degree have you actually controlled the course your life has taken? Some, a lot of it just happened.

10.  Are you more worried about doing things right, or doing the right things? Doing the right things

11.   You’re having lunch with three people you respect and admire.  They all start criticizing a close friend of yours, not knowing she is your friend.  The criticism is distasteful and unjustified.  What do you do? I tell them that she’s my friend and they’re only saying those things because they don’t really know her well enough. And I probably won’t admire them as much after that.

12.   If you could offer a newborn child only one piece of advice, what would it be? Be genuine and never let them break you.

13.   Would you break the law to save a loved one? Yes

14.   Have you ever seen insanity where you later saw creativity? Always

15.   What’s something you know you do differently than most people? I couldn’t put on a mask, even if I wanted to. Also, having the ability to put myself in someone else’s shoes.

16.   How come the things that make you happy don’t make everyone happy? Everyone’s different.

17.   What one thing have you not done that you really want to do?  What’s holding you back? Being a doctor, what’s holding me back is not knowing chemistry and feeling like I’m too old to go down that road.

18.  Are you holding onto something you need to let go of? Yes.

19.   If you had to move to a state or country besides the one you currently live in, where would you move and why? USA, always wanted to live there.

20.  Do you push the elevator button more than once?  Do you really believe it makes the elevator faster? No.

21.   Would you rather be a worried genius or a joyful simpleton? Joyful simpleton, no doubt. Ignorance is bliss.

22.  Why are you, you? Because I couldn’t be anything else.

23.  Have you been the kind of friend you want as a friend? Not always.

24.  Which is worse, when a good friend moves away, or losing touch with a good friend who lives right near you? When a good friend moves away

25.  What are you most grateful for? Still having a chance at happiness. Stil breathing. Finally starting to learn a few things about life.

26.  Would you rather lose all of your old memories, or never be able to make new ones? Lose all my old memories.

27.  Is is possible to know the truth without challenging it first? No.

28.  Has your greatest fear ever come true? Maybe, but I’ll only be sure the moment I die.

29.  Do you remember that time 5 years ago when you were extremely upset?  Does it really matter now? Not the moment in itself, but it matters what it did to me.

30.  What is your happiest childhood memory?  What makes it so special? Any memory of my mom.

31.   At what time in your recent past have you felt most passionate and alive? Whenever I shared a laugh with good friends. And during my first anatomy class.

32.  If not now, then when? When and if I finally figure it out.

33.  If you haven’t achieved it yet, what do you have to lose? A dream

34.  Have you ever been with someone, said nothing, and walked away feeling like you just had the best conversation ever? No. But always wanted to. I have trouble feeling comfortable in silence.

35.  Why do religions that support love cause so many wars? Because even if the principles and values are right, the people who should apply them are corrupted and will always end up distorting them.

36.  Is it possible to know, without a doubt, what is good and what is evil? Some things yes, but there are grey areas.

37.  If you just won a million dollars, would you quit your job? Probably not.

38.  Would you rather have less work to do, or more work you actually enjoy doing? Less work.

39.  Do you feel like you’ve lived this day a hundred times before? Yes

40.  When was the last time you marched into the dark with only the soft glow of an idea you strongly believed in? It’s been a while

41.   If you knew that everyone you know was going to die tomorrow, who would you visit today? My best friends, and my dad.

42.  Would you be willing to reduce your life expectancy by 10 years to become extremely attractive or famous? Yes. I wish I could say no, but I would be lying.

43.  What is the difference between being alive and truly living? Learning to accept yourself, do the things you love and not apologize being who you are.

44.  When is it time to stop calculating risk and rewards, and just go ahead and do what you know is right? For me, now.

45.  If we learn from our mistakes, why are we always so afraid to make a mistake? Because sometimes we repeat them. We don’t always learn the first time.

46.  What would you do differently if you knew nobody would judge you? I would stop caring so much about other people’s opinions. I already do what I want to do, but I can’t stop letting judgment affect me too much.

47.  When was the last time you noticed the sound of your own breathing? Last night. I always do that when I have insomnia.

48.  What do you love?  Have any of your recent actions openly expressed this love? Literally falling to the floor laughing. Feeling vulnerable without being afraid. Books, sunsets, taking a good macro, eating without counting calories. childish silly moments with friends. Browsing through old memories. Daydreaming. Yes.

49.  In 5 years from now, will you remember what you did yesterday?  What about the day before that?  Or the day before that? Probably not. Nothing remarkable.

50.  Decisions are being made right now.  The question is:  Are you making them for yourself, or are you letting others make them for you? For myself, but I have yet to learn to keep them from influencing me completely.